So today is my 19th birthday. Yea for me! right?
First, thank you to everyone who sent their warm wishes!
Reflecting on the past year, I see it has been a quite amazing one. Beginning with the end of my senior year. Actually this day last year it was prom. And what a good time it was. I could not have wished for better friends to spend the day with! It was an absolutely amazing night: pictures, dancing, chop house, sleepover… And then the rest of senior year: all the good times in the yearbook room, the art show, physics, Latin, that 20 page parody play we wrote for Williams. And then graduation! Finally the day had come when I said goodbye to school but also said a bittersweet farewell to all of my lifelong friends. No time to lag though, then it was immediately off to Camp Carl where I made new friends, grew closer to God, and oh yeah improved my archery skills :) A couple of weeks on maintenance staff at camp and then I was on my way to OSU. I find myself quite adapted to independent life, with the exception of choosing classes to take and finishing math for the rest of my life! it has been quite a journey. I have tried things I never thought I would, gone to events I never knew existed and experienced so many new things I don’t know where to begin. I have ticket stubs from french musicals to art exhibits to airplane flights. This past year wasn’t all a field of daisies though, keeping up my grades at college is tough, deciding what I want to do with my future it hard, and keeping my moral principles in a dilapidated environment even more so. There was some heartbreak and depression and tears were shed. I don’t know what life has in store for me or whether I can make my 19th year better than this amazing 18th, but I will certainly try. We are all always moving forward. Working towards goals that are typically not visibly on the horizon. I personally am running towards life. I want to travel and I want to keep on experiencing new things everyday, I never want to stop learning.
For awhile I looked at celebrating my birthday as celebrating myself, which I don’t like. It seems in today’s world everything already revolves around oneself and I am tired of all the egocentrism. I would like to think that I don’t focus on myself all the time, but I am aware that most of the time I probably do. I would like to look at birthdays as more of a celebration of the past year and as an opportunity to make the next year even more extraordinary. I’m not going to go out of my way to celebrate my birthday in a huge manner. I don’t need presents or cake. I am reminded and grateful that I do have a birthday when so many were not even given the chance. My birthday for me is more of an inward reflection.
I cant rightfully move on to my 19th year though without giving credit to the people who made my 18th year so great though:
My family of course, I love you all!
Jasmine, Reem, Melissa, Chris, Mary, Samira, you all made my entire senior year one of the best in my life! Thank you so much! I miss you way more than you know. (this summer we will have some amazing weekends!)
Nikki and my co’s at camp! I learned so much from you and cant wait for this summer!
All my new OSU peeps- there is plenty ahead for us and I cannot wait!